We Realize the Real Value at Loss

schizoaffective disorder “We dislike losing the things we have more than we appreciate gaining the things we don’t have.” (Bevelin P.: Seeking Wisdom from Darwin to Munger, Third Edition, Post Scriptum AB: 2013, p. 67)

For me the most painful loss was the loss of health at the age of 22. The diagnosis was scary and even hard to spell: schizoaffective disorder. My first reaction was denial. I thought for years that psychiatric pills were the only remedy. Later I started to explore lifestyle changes. Today I do many things to stay healthy, taking medication is only one of them.

In the morning, before I start writing, I do a meditation according to the Phyllis Krystal method called the maple. In the safe space of the meditative technique I fill myself with relaxing, cleansing, healing, strengthening energy and unconditional love. I also organize my day in my head. This mental exercise gives me strength to write despite all my doubts and fears and it offers me a positive orientation throughout the day. Sometimes anxiety or depression make me repeat the maple technique later in the day. I might also add another exercise called number 8 that frees me from obsessively worrying about something or somebody.

I do body exercise twice a week. I used to do belly dance in a group, which does not exist anymore, so now I do it alone at home. It’s an aerobic activity, but it also helps straightening my back, which can hurt from sitting. This is the first exercise, which takes place during the working week, and the second one is hiking up a hill close to my home on weekends. What I like to do every evening is a relaxing walk through the forest nearby – this is more meditation than exercise, but very useful and soothing.

I avoid parties and visits after seven p.m., which is time to start slowing down and getting ready for bed. I usually fall asleep at ten p.m. Twice a week my husband gives me a massage. All this activities have resulted in the fact that I only need the minimal dosage of psychiatric medication to stay healthy.

When you read my book Balancing the Beast, you will find that the things I do to stay healthy have changed through the years. I choose what works for me best at the time and never stop exploring. I would never dedicate so much time, energy and thought to maintaining my health, hadn’t I lost it at such an early age.

WARNING: If you happen to be experiencing mental health problems, please do not try any mental exercises mentioned in this blog without consulting your psychiatrist first.

Take care,

Helena Smole, author of:

– a fantasy novel with romance Vivvy and Izzy the Dwarf: A series about relationships

Balancing the Beast, a book offering a bright view of schizoaffective disorder ˗ bipolar or manic-depressive type

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