Inner Inquisition

I have come to a conclusion that the majority of my fears are fears of making a mistake. I am not most worried about others forgiving me. I am more worried about my inner inquisition: Will I be able to forgive myself? Will I try to find my fault in something which is clearly the fault of somebody else or is simply destiny or a coincidence? Had I not gone to Northern Germany that October of 1996 (see: Balancing the Beast), would my mental illness ever emerge? Is it my fault that I have to deal with it now? Or was it only a matter of time, when schizoaffective disorder would pop up and destroy the...
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The Power of Complexity

In a complex system it is precisely the number and variation of its units that makes it possible for the system to adapt, when its environment changes. (Compare: Martin Reeves, Simon Levin, Daichi Ueda: Von der Natur lernen, published in: Harvard Business manager, September 2016, pages 34-46.) It might seem curious to you that I get my ideas for writing in business magazines, but let me tell you that they pop up any time, sometimes when and where one would least expect it. So it came to be that I suddenly though of the variety of methods I use to cope with my schizoaffective disorder bipolar type as...
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How I Overthink About the Future

Not thinking ahead ——— Overthinking ahead Let us view the two options each individually. I do not need to go into detail about not thinking ahead. Calamity might ensue. Unfortunately overthinking ahead is another extreme and just as bad. It is one of the basic concepts known since the Greek philosophy (if not from earlier as common traditional knowledge) that the right measure is always the golden mean. As easy as it is said it is just as much hard to put it into practice. Going to one of the extremes is easier because one does not require thinking. One just simply exaggerates and...
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The Inclination to Tragedy or Comedy

One can write the stories of one’s life two ways: turn the script into a tragedy or into a comedy. There are some limitations to that of course: death, serious illness or injury are hard to turn into a comedy. At least at the initial shock. I will never forget the book by Paul Brickhill Reach For the Sky. It is a story about a RAF pilot, who lost both of his legs, but made it back to flying a plane. The novel is full of comic remarks and never does the pilot Douglas Bader feel sorry for himself. When I start feeling sorry for myself, I often remember this book and it always has a good effect on...
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The Optimist Pessimist Realist Triangle

This blog was inspired by words of Horace, the Roman poet, written nearly 2,000 years ago. These lines are from his Odes (ii,10): In sadness hope, in gladness fear, ‘Gainst coming change will fortify Your breast. The storm that Jupiter Sweeps o’er the sky He chases. Why should rain today Bring rain tomorrow? Be brave in trouble; meet distress With dauntless front; but when the gale Too prosperous blows, be wise no less, And shorten sail. You can read the whole Ode here. Each situation can happen in different ways. It can turn out this way, the other way or a third, rather unexpected way....
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