It’s a lovely coffee bar I am sitting in this afternoon. Alone – for I need a break. Some hours of solitude per week are my absolute need. To help facilitate the brain to calm down. I sit here alone which is less common than sitting in a pair or a group. I write while sipping my cappuccino. Which is even less common. I look at the people at the other tables and I can’t get rid of the thought: »They think I am a lunatic.« It’s the self-programming of a psychiatric patient that is ON in my brain now. It’s not reality. I don’t actually act weird. It’s just less...

Today I want to share with you something that might be useful to you. It’s autumn now in Europe, the States etc. Have you tried walking in a forest? It’s great. I noticed that the older I get the more I am impressed by the warm autumn colors ranging from brown to yellow. I enjoy the whole palette: orange, crimson, scarlet, pale yellow, intense yellow and of course the soothing brown. Yesterday I went picking chestnuts in the woods. I heard nothing but the birds, the cracking of old branches and the falling of chestnuts to the ground. The sun gave the reddish bark of pine trees a magical...

Hi everyone! People with and people without the schizoaffective disorder! There is no crucial difference. Just that us – people with this disorder – have a bit more sensitive brain than others. We can be totally lovable though. Here is what happened to me a few days ago. First I should tell you that I am writing a book about my experience with the schizoaffective disorder. The experience is beginning to be so much fun I want to share it with you. As I am not a famous writer I figured the best way to sell my book would be to self-publish. So parallel to writing the book I study and plan the...