Hues of Self Help

Self help is not just about reading books. It is also about becoming fluent. One can read a million books and still not learn anything, for reading a book just once usually does not mean remembering its contents for a longer period of time. So my advice would be: Don’t just read, but become fluent. What do I mean by that? Take a book you like and memorize the wisdom inside. You can write down the crucial sentences and pin them on your bulletin board or a wall. Or you can store the paper cards with wisdom notes in your wallet, where you will look at them often. Self help writer Louise Hay, for...
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Inner Inquisition

I have come to a conclusion that the majority of my fears are fears of making a mistake. I am not most worried about others forgiving me. I am more worried about my inner inquisition: Will I be able to forgive myself? Will I try to find my fault in something which is clearly the fault of somebody else or is simply destiny or a coincidence? Had I not gone to Northern Germany that October of 1996 (see: Balancing the Beast), would my mental illness ever emerge? Is it my fault that I have to deal with it now? Or was it only a matter of time, when schizoaffective disorder would pop up and destroy the...
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