Posted by Helena Smole in Schizoaffective disorder
on Mar 4th, 2013
Having been faced with a mental illness, there is always the danger of going to extremes. Either one closes up on himself/herself, becomes convinced that nobody understands him/her and strives to resolve the problem on his/her own, which is usually too difficult. Or one expects of his/her doctors, relatives and friends to do everything, even his/her part, which would be the other extreme.
Imagine Atlas, the super-strong guy from Greek mythology, who held up the celestial sphere. Sweating in the sun, running out of strength due to a heavy burden. And at the same time three of his colleagues lying in a...
Posted by Helena Smole in Schizoaffective disorder
on Feb 18th, 2013
Day and night, shadow and sunlight, winter and summer … life is full of opposites and we are adjusting to them on and on. In summer we wish it were a little cooler, so we could do more work. In winter we wish days were longer and sunnier, so we would have more energy. All those wishes are expression of control we would like to have over natural phenomena. In reality, a wise thing to do is to adapt and expect less, when it is too hot or when the lack of sunlight is making our brain sluggish.
One thing we can do is not make any big plans for winter, if we know that our brain responds with...
Posted by Helena Smole in Schizoaffective disorder
on Feb 4th, 2013
My husband surprised me with a question the other day: »Why are spring and autumn most problematic regarding your bipolar disorder? Does it have anything to do with star constellations and the movements of the planets and the moon?« I answered: »Maybe. I do not know much about astronomy. But I do know about chaos in my brain caused by seasonal change. …« When I was finished giving him an answer, he suggested I wrote a blog about it. I argued that there were numerous psychiatrists who have given more plausible and scientifically proven answers available on the internet. My explanation was too...
Posted by Helena Smole in Relationships
on Jan 21st, 2013
I had a good plan at the beginning of December about Christmas cards for my relatives. I wanted to draw them myself. I managed to come up with a sketch of a skiing dwarf and I thought I would draw variations of that dwarf with color pencils.
That was the original plan. It turned out quite differently. I used to prepare paper and color pencils several times a week, but week after week they just lied there on the table. I never started to draw. I felt horrible about it for almost a month, until it got too late to make Christmas cards myself anyway and I bought some instead.
It was only in January this...
Posted by Helena Smole in Vacations and trips
on Jan 7th, 2013
The key to a peaceful life is taking control of your wishes. One extreme is trying to make all your wishes true. That way you are unfocused, constantly drawn away from important things and in danger of losing what really matters in life, like health or family bliss for example. The other extreme is trying to achieve nirvana or the state without wishes. Nirvana is the minute before dying in your last incarnation, so take it easy – you can have some wishes, just make sure you don’t overdo it. Some things are not meant to be, thus you should let go of some wishes. Another common mistake is having...