Only Careful or Filled with Anxiety?

It is a fine line between being careful and showing a mental illness symptom called anxiety. I can never tell, whether it is just my personality trait or am I exhibiting a symptom. I have found lately that I over-analyze myself. I see every worry as mental instability.

Often people tell me stories in a way, which clearly shows, that they worry about the described situation. I try to comfort them: “Don’t worry.” Most of them answer: “I am not worried. I just described my situation.” In my opinion, they do not feel the worry, because they want to hide it. It is supposed to show weakness. Well, I am the other extreme. If I carry on like this, pretty soon I will see every thought in my head as worry, or even worse than that: as anxiety. I probably just care and think too much.

The last couple of years I have not been writing much. Thus I over-analyzed my cooking and cleaning the apartment. I added several procedures, which make everything super-safe. Today I started to work on my book again and I find: if I care too much, I will care too much about this book. Of course I will continue to take my medication, see my psychiatrist and do the soothing techniques.

Take care,

Helena Smole, author of:

– a fantasy novel with romance Vivvy and Izzy the Dwarf: A series about relationships

– Balancing the Beast, a book offering a bright view of schizoaffective disorder ˗ bipolar or manic-depressive type