This topic is so subtle and fragile that I do not dare to write any general assumptions. Let me just tell you my story. I had a well-paid job for 9 years. But not a single day would go by was I not writing my resignation in my mind. The problem there were very tense human relationships at the office that I found very hard to keep myself out of. Thus I tried several times to find another job so that I could finally quit. The first job, that I almost took, but got distracted from it through a chain of coincidence, turned out to be awful. It is funny that – years later – I met a girl that had used to...

See my new video, where I tell my story and present the book: Balancing the Beast: A Bright View of Schizoaffective Disorder – Bipolar or Manic-Depressive Type.

Having been faced with a mental illness, there is always the danger of going to extremes. Either one closes up on himself/herself, becomes convinced that nobody understands him/her and strives to resolve the problem on his/her own, which is usually too difficult. Or one expects of his/her doctors, relatives and friends to do everything, even his/her part, which would be the other extreme. Imagine Atlas, the super-strong guy from Greek mythology, who held up the celestial sphere. Sweating in the sun, running out of strength due to a heavy burden. And at the same time three of his colleagues lying in a...

Day and night, shadow and sunlight, winter and summer … life is full of opposites and we are adjusting to them on and on. In summer we wish it were a little cooler, so we could do more work. In winter we wish days were longer and sunnier, so we would have more energy. All those wishes are expression of control we would like to have over natural phenomena. In reality, a wise thing to do is to adapt and expect less, when it is too hot or when the lack of sunlight is making our brain sluggish. One thing we can do is not make any big plans for winter, if we know that our brain responds with...

My husband surprised me with a question the other day: »Why are spring and autumn most problematic regarding your bipolar disorder? Does it have anything to do with star constellations and the movements of the planets and the moon?« I answered: »Maybe. I do not know much about astronomy. But I do know about chaos in my brain caused by seasonal change. …« When I was finished giving him an answer, he suggested I wrote a blog about it. I argued that there were numerous psychiatrists who have given more plausible and scientifically proven answers available on the internet. My explanation was too...