Posted by Helena Smole in Relationships
on May 27th, 2013
Every day I watch waitresses, bus-drivers, librarians and all sorts of clerks getting verbally attacked by their clients. And it really hurts to see this, because they are victims of the horrible chaos we live in. What exactly do I mean by that?
I have the luxury of being my own boss, but most people do not have that luxury. And the boss or a superior at work is the one you are not supposed to call names. Thus you suppress the anger. Suppressed anger is going to break free in a library later and the librarian shall be the innocent victim. He/she will suppress the anger at the violent client and the...
Posted by Helena Smole in Relationships
on Apr 28th, 2013
It’s the rain after a long draught,
and sunshine after long rain is equally sought.
It’s a kind word from the lips of a stranger,
and a friend with whom the truth is never in danger.
It’s the feeling that the theater of the skies
will always be there for our eyes:
be it the dreading yellow light just before the storm,
or the artist’s palette
of red hues at a sunset.
It’s not so much about seeing your wallet grow,
but more about the faith in the eternal money flow.
It’s the gratitude for the roof above my head,
a good company beneath it and a warm bed.
It’s the wish the homeless would no...
Posted by Helena Smole in Relationships
on Apr 15th, 2013
Have you felt it too? It is strong, isn’t it? And repeatedly we are being told by wise men and women that we should change ourselves not the people around us.
I believe in that too. Only sometimes I think it can be overrated in the sense that I confuse it with something else: setting some limitations in order to protect myself (self-defense).
Let me give you an example. I used to be exposed to two negative people that I had to visit often. Or at least I thought I had to visit them often, because they told me so and made me feel guilty, if I skipped regular dates. They were negative in the sense...
Posted by Helena Smole in Relationships
on Apr 2nd, 2013
A friend of mine once said that there are two ways in life: either you work for people or you work against them. The way government money is entering private pockets these days I think I finally understand, why some people feel the urge to gather more and more money. Stolen money is giving them a sense of safety. But not for long. Soon they have to steal some more. Why? Because the feeling of safety is false. They will never feel safe, no matter how much money they acquire with fraud and extortion. Hence they have to get more of it. Over and over again. It is a vicious circle.
On the other hand people...
Posted by Helena Smole in Schizoaffective disorder
on Mar 18th, 2013
This topic is so subtle and fragile that I do not dare to write any general assumptions. Let me just tell you my story.
I had a well-paid job for 9 years. But not a single day would go by was I not writing my resignation in my mind. The problem there were very tense human relationships at the office that I found very hard to keep myself out of.
Thus I tried several times to find another job so that I could finally quit. The first job, that I almost took, but got distracted from it through a chain of coincidence, turned out to be awful. It is funny that – years later – I met a girl that had used to...